25 JulBusy, busy, busy!

Well this week has been crazy busy. I’ve had a couple of job seeking days which involved me  going on a couple of interviews / meetings whatever you want to call them. They try to help you understand how to find a job and try find me courses I could possibly progress onto. They also gave some tips on how to approach interviews  and improve your CV. It didn’t help too much but it certainly gave me a confidence boost. I have another quick meeting on Monday to improve my CV which I’m looking forward to. My CV is a shambles it needs a lot of improvement and things adding to it but I don’t have a clue where to start.

I went to the doctors Friday to get off of my medication I have been on for a long time to deal with my anxiety and depression. I am finally off them now for good. I stopped taking them on my own accord about a month ago now. I feel so much better and more confident since I’ve came off them which is weird. I was relying on them too much I think. What makes me happier about being off them is Rosie is proud of me :) She knows and has helped me quite a bit since I’ve been on them and I didn’t tell her at first as I didn’t think more of it. When I told her she was shocked and knowing she is proud of me just makes me so happy it’s unreal! :) I’ve also come off my sleeping tablets as I was having problems sleeping but I have a few left if I need to take them but after that no more.

Just in the process of moving Fragtopia over to our new web hosting at the moment and installing the forums. So glad we have new hosting thanks Elliot for offering us it at that nice price! We were getting sick of all the downtime on our old host but that won’t happen anymore with our new one thank god. It hopefully will draw in more users. If you haven’t checked out Fragtopia yet you can at www.fragtopia.co.uk our site isn’t up yet but once our forums our I will tweet it and the url will be www.fragtopia.co.uk/forums/ main page will be up as soon as possible but we need the forums up before anything to get everyone signed up again.

Anyway phew! That was one big update.. hope you like the new theme and I’ll try update again in a couple of days.

15 JunStressed.

I’m so stressed tonight. The thought of leaving college very soon is just dawning on me and it’s my showcase to show my final major project off on Monday night. It needs to be all printed off and on the boards by Friday. I’m pretty much finished doing all my work I just need to work up some posters and then tidy up my sketchbook. Hopefully I pass… I’m doubtful I won’t because I lost a lot of interest in the course after being off ill with my anxiety.

So yeah  if anyone was wondering why I hadn’t updated that’s why I’ve just been so busy and totally forgot about my blog if I’m honest. I’ll try update as much as possible. Once I’m done with college it won’t be so bad I’ll be updating a lot more. Anyway I’m off to stuff my face because I’m starving and download episode one of True Blood season 3. I’m been waiting for season 3 for months I’m such a Trubie! I love it. Vampires, shape shifters and much more epic! I’ll let you know what I think of episode one but for now I’m signing off, good night.

07 JunAching!

Good god my legs are aching from running the past two days! So sore walking downstairs but it’s nothing that’s going to stop me from doing it just painful. I decided to not go for a run today and rest my legs. There’s no point pushing myself too hard as I can only get better over time not over night.

I had my first day back at college today. Really didn’t feel like going in… Firstly I woke up feeling really sick but I think that was my anxiety kicking in as I used to feel like that all the time when my anxiety was a lot worse than it is now. College was pretty boring. Just scanned some of my drawings in and started to work one of them up in Adobe Photoshop. That was basically my day at college how exciting!

Going to finish off watching the rest of The Shining now. It shall be the first time I have ever seen it. I know shocking! I’m going through a list of the top 50 favourite films of all time on IMDb but picking them out the ones I really want to watch first. I know it’s a really old movie but I think I might write a mini review of it tonight or tomorrow.

What do you think? Comments welcome.