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Well then it’s been a while since I’ve got round to updating my blog due to a lot of other things getting in the way and getting sidetracked. I’ve been quite busy still really in a way. I’ve been getting my CV sorted out and other things to help me possibly get a job so fingers crossed. I really want a job I’m sick of been sat at home. I’ll admit it’s fun playing games but there is only so much you can do before you want to just go out and have money. I need money to go see Rosie more I miss her like crazy. Saving up to get a train ticket at the mo but it’s going to take at least another month I think. I’m going to get one of those rail cards so I can get some money off travel. It might not be much but every penny counts at the minute!!

I and the team over at www.fragtopia.co.uk have pretty much finished up the site now. Just some minor tweaks here and there plus adding some features to make the site more user friendly. We just need more members really. We have quite a few active ones that we appreciate but the more the merrier! So if anyone is reading this and is a gamer on any platform go ahead and give us a visit, sign up and introduce yourself.

I’m going to start my running again today. I need to keep my fitness up it made me feel better when I used to do it before. Going to slowly get back into press ups and sit ups as well gradually doing more. I can still do them easily but I don’t want to over do it.

Anyway .. less of the blogging going to watch the rest of Scarface and go to sleep. Night!

Well this week has been crazy busy. I’ve had a couple of job seeking days which involved me  going on a couple of interviews / meetings whatever you want to call them. They try to help you understand how to find a job and try find me courses I could possibly progress onto. They also gave some tips on how to approach interviews  and improve your CV. It didn’t help too much but it certainly gave me a confidence boost. I have another quick meeting on Monday to improve my CV which I’m looking forward to. My CV is a shambles it needs a lot of improvement and things adding to it but I don’t have a clue where to start.

I went to the doctors Friday to get off of my medication I have been on for a long time to deal with my anxiety and depression. I am finally off them now for good. I stopped taking them on my own accord about a month ago now. I feel so much better and more confident since I’ve came off them which is weird. I was relying on them too much I think. What makes me happier about being off them is Rosie is proud of me :) She knows and has helped me quite a bit since I’ve been on them and I didn’t tell her at first as I didn’t think more of it. When I told her she was shocked and knowing she is proud of me just makes me so happy it’s unreal! :) I’ve also come off my sleeping tablets as I was having problems sleeping but I have a few left if I need to take them but after that no more.

Just in the process of moving Fragtopia over to our new web hosting at the moment and installing the forums. So glad we have new hosting thanks Elliot for offering us it at that nice price! We were getting sick of all the downtime on our old host but that won’t happen anymore with our new one thank god. It hopefully will draw in more users. If you haven’t checked out Fragtopia yet you can at www.fragtopia.co.uk our site isn’t up yet but once our forums our I will tweet it and the url will be www.fragtopia.co.uk/forums/ main page will be up as soon as possible but we need the forums up before anything to get everyone signed up again.

Anyway phew! That was one big update.. hope you like the new theme and I’ll try update again in a couple of days.

These past two weeks have been some of the best, if not the best weeks of my life. Two whole weeks with the most caring, loving, beautiful girlfriend in the world. I loved being down in Saltash, Cornwall with everyone. I felt really welcomed.

A couple of my favourite moments have to be spending the day at Penzance with Rosie to celebrate our 8 months together. I got burnt to a crisp but I don’t mind it was an amazing and romantic day together. :) Second thing has to be meeting little Lucas. He is Rosie’s little nephew who hasn’t been too well since he was born. He came home on Wednesday! I bet and know Rosie’s brother (Richard) & Chrissy are over the moon!! So happy for them both!

Anyway to wrap it up I’ve had a fantastic two weeks with you Rosie. You’re the best person in my life and the world. Don’t know what I’d do without you. Thank you for making these past two weeks so special to me. I love you Rosie Ann Sutton ♥ I miss you like crazy already.

Oh my god I’m so excited!!! Rosie is coming up tomorrow for a week. It’s the first time I’ve seen her since Easter yay! I shall be going down to Cornwall too for a week with her I can’t wait. I’ve never been to Cornwall and from what I’ve seen it looks lovely!

Words can’t even explain how excited I am… got butterflies. Come on today go a little faster please? I want to see my gorgeous girlfriend, thank you.

Why hello there! Been a week or longer since I last updated my blog. I just really couldn’t be bothered if I’m honest plus well I have more to talk about right now.

First of all I get to see Rosie on either Friday or Saturday for at least a few days yey! I’m so excited I actually have butterflies in my stomach already!! I miss her so much she’s my world. Can’t imagine my life without her. As you may have noticed I include her in many of my blog posts. :) I may be going down to Cornwall to with Rosie to her house for a week or two hopefully if the job centre let me. (Fingers crossed). I really want to go down there and spend some time with Rosie.

Well anyway if you’ve just read the above about the job centre well I’m on job seekers allowance now. Still waiting for my claim to process but hopefully it will be done sometime next week. Looking for jobs sucks but it must be done I need the money till I’m back at college.

Thirdly and finally I launched a new website with a couple of friends Sam & Simon for gamers who enjoy a good community and a place to share and discuss your thoughts on the gaming world. We named it Fragtopia and you can check us out over at www.fragtopia.co.uk please sign up if your intrepid in games I’m sure you’ll love it! We cater for all kinds of gamers be it PC, Console or mobile.

Anyway that’s all for now. Maybe I’ll blog tomorrow… maybe I won’t we’ll see!

So last night I went out with all my friends from college since it was our last day of seeing each other for some of us. I had such a great time and got drunk even though I said I never would! I always say that… silly me. My friend took lots of photos with my camera which you can check out over here: http://bit.ly/9ARYn8 It’s a public link so you guys should be able to view it. :)

Here’s come the bad part of the night… I was walking home drunk out of my skull when about 6 people decide to jump me, beat me up a little bit then steal my phone. The irony out of it all is I was walking off angry and shook up and one of them hands me my phone back. Who the hell does that?! So basically I got beat up for fuck all! Still a little annoyed about it. My nose is killing me I’m going to have to get it checked out tomorrow at the walk in centre in town cause hopefully it’s not broken. I think it’s just badly bruised but better to get it looked at.

I want to put the worry of Rosie’s mind. I wish she could be here right now. Missing her so much and then this happens I need her. :( Oh well not long now she’s coming up next weekend I can’t wait! When I wake up I got to tell her my Nan said it’s ok to stay. :D

Anyway I’m off to get some well deserved rest. Good night.

Phew.. so yesterday was hectic. I woke up late, went in college, printed all my work off for my showcase and then had to sit around for a few hours doing nothing because the tutor was busy helping others put their work up which is understandable. Bloody wish I didn’t sleep in, stupid me! I eventually got all my artwork up and it looks amazing. I’m not the best artist in the world and not very good at being erm… how do you say it proud of my work. Because I thought it was pretty poor. Now I’ve had a change of heart since it was mounted on the wall it looks brilliant! So anyone in Oldham, Greater Manchester make sure you come to the showcase Monday night 18:30 PM if you can.

Just had a long msn convo with evilmunky (check out his twitter). He is one top guy! I shouldn’t of stayed up this late… I need to be up for 8, DOH. Oh well lie in tomorrow woo! Got to sort my sketchbook out over the weekend and hand it in Tuesday for my final marks then I’m done. Still considering going back for a year or two to get some more qualifications. Still not sure which college to go for… so hard!

Anyway I’m signing off.. going to wake Rosie up in the morning she wants me to call her :) love talking to Rosie when I first open my eyes makes my day so much better! Good night readers of my boring blog!

P.S. Oh yeah, theme change the new WordPress 3.0 default theme woop! Shall finish sorting it all out properly over the weekend.

I’m so stressed tonight. The thought of leaving college very soon is just dawning on me and it’s my showcase to show my final major project off on Monday night. It needs to be all printed off and on the boards by Friday. I’m pretty much finished doing all my work I just need to work up some posters and then tidy up my sketchbook. Hopefully I pass… I’m doubtful I won’t because I lost a lot of interest in the course after being off ill with my anxiety.

So yeah  if anyone was wondering why I hadn’t updated that’s why I’ve just been so busy and totally forgot about my blog if I’m honest. I’ll try update as much as possible. Once I’m done with college it won’t be so bad I’ll be updating a lot more. Anyway I’m off to stuff my face because I’m starving and download episode one of True Blood season 3. I’m been waiting for season 3 for months I’m such a Trubie! I love it. Vampires, shape shifters and much more epic! I’ll let you know what I think of episode one but for now I’m signing off, good night.

Good god my legs are aching from running the past two days! So sore walking downstairs but it’s nothing that’s going to stop me from doing it just painful. I decided to not go for a run today and rest my legs. There’s no point pushing myself too hard as I can only get better over time not over night.

I had my first day back at college today. Really didn’t feel like going in… Firstly I woke up feeling really sick but I think that was my anxiety kicking in as I used to feel like that all the time when my anxiety was a lot worse than it is now. College was pretty boring. Just scanned some of my drawings in and started to work one of them up in Adobe Photoshop. That was basically my day at college how exciting!

Going to finish off watching the rest of The Shining now. It shall be the first time I have ever seen it. I know shocking! I’m going through a list of the top 50 favourite films of all time on IMDb but picking them out the ones I really want to watch first. I know it’s a really old movie but I think I might write a mini review of it tonight or tomorrow.

What do you think? Comments welcome.

Well it’s 2 in the morning right now and I can’t sleep so I might as well fill you in on what I got up to yesterday. Well I went out early in the morning for my first real run in probably years as I don’t do sports or anything anymore but as you know I’m trying to get my fitness back up in preparation from the Territorial Army. I only managed a mere 6 minute run! Yes I know it’s shocking. I couldn’t believe it myself but goes to show how unfit I really am. I use my iPhone to record my stats using RunKeeper Pro. You can check the stats and the route I took here: http://runkeeper.com/user/sheeep

I shall be going for another run later once I manage to get some sleep. Going to try a steady 10 minute run and remember to take bottle of water with me as I forgot yesterday and ended up feeling really dehydrated and walking back to my house I felt so sick I thought I was going to pass out! The field are only up a hill from my street but it felt like a mission away. Soon as I got in I just got some water and just passed out my bed for a few hours I felt dead. I’m going to follow what Rosie said and use that as my guide “Don’t run until you can walk”. Very true point and I need to stop pushing myself too hard as I have at least a few months before I can join the TA.

Later on when I woke up I went round to my mum’s house for a bit because I hadn’t seen her all week and fancied giving her a visit. Stayed for my tea, watched a couple of episodes of Spartacus with my mum’s fiancée Dom and watched then end of Shrek 2 before going home. Didn’t do too much but I just wanted to see everyone it was nice. :) Even my little brother Jenson was beating me up and running off with his cheeky smile loved it. He is a spitting image of me as a young child and we are 15 years apart! I have a feeling he will look like me when he’s older.

Anyway not got much more to saw. Trying to get sleepy. I took a tablet which helps me sleep as I have problems sleeping. I’m just sat here listening to some Eminem. Can’t wait for his new album later this month! I absolutely love him. His lyrics are real and we can all relate to them in some way or at least some of us can.

That’s all for now thanks for reading. Good night / good morning ladies and gents.